FAIL

It would be a very accurate estimation to declare that:

1. This week kicked my ass (work + teens+ irritating people + long days + more WORK)

2. Fake NaBloPoMo = FAIL by Day 10. Honestly, I’m surprised I made it that far, and I totally admire those that do blog daily.  You guys rock.

However, I will be fair and say that since the NaBloPoMo was FAKE to begin with, not such a big fail.

I still posted more than I had lately, I’ll still post when I can, and it is what it is. It’s not like the internet was going to give me a prize, right?

Although…. if I was going to get a prize, from THE INTERNET, I’d have picked a copy of Jenny Lawson’s upcoming book “Let’s Pretend This Never Happened”.  Jenny is BRILLIANTLY funny and her blog, The Bloggess, is one of my favorites. Go pre-order her book on Amazon, I promise it will be the best decision you ever made. (Maybe not ever. But close, really close). Go now.

 

Insight from this little experiment: I’m good at getting all goal-y. I get excited at the notion of lists and the feeling of accomplishment when I check something off said list. This enthusiasm, intoxicating as it may be, is hard for me to sustain.  A good summation of this phenomena would be the post, “This Is Why I’ll Never Be An Adult” on Hyperbole and a Half, by another favorite blogger Allie Brosch. She nails it, perfectly.

Source: hyperboleandahalf.com. You have to read this post.

One more thing. Day 9’s post was brutally honest, and I am so grateful for the kindness and support of a lot of incredible people. THANK YOU for being so good to me. Much love.

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Day 9

You guys. SUPER FUNKY today.

Not as in funky/odiferous (eu!) nor funkadelic (though the link below may suggest otherwise) but funky like down in a funk. I’ve no idea why, usually I am the happy sort, but today has been especially unfocused. Kinda sad, kinda, dare I say it, depressed.

Why do I hesitate when saying the D word. Why does it have such a negative association in my mind? Perfectly awesome people are depressed. They battle it and survive it and it gets better…..

I fully subscribe to being human. I know all days are not going to be sunny and happy and shiny.  It just happens to be a rare thing for me, and when that happens it seems more noticeable. And I feel more culpable. How dare I have an off day!

Reasons for said funk. (None of which may make any sense because I am going to be cryptic enough to respect the privacy of those involved).

1. I had a parent fail this weekend and today. Parent fails suck. I know the “perfect parent” does not exist, and I know my job is harder because I am usually both mom and dad to The Teens…but I hate when I disappoint. I want so much to give them everything and teach them everything and…just everything, and I failed this weekend and yesterday and today. DAMN. IT.

2. I am a sucky planner. And an even suckier follow through-er. ADD? Depression? Crippling case of procrastination that makes what I should do seem so overwhelming that I can’t do it? Yeah, that.

3. I keep saying I am going to get to the gym and I haven’t yet. What the hell am I waiting for.

4. I had an argument/conversation with someone, who did and didn’t do something, and who I have very complicated feelings for. This person could stand to live outside of his bubble and not be so damn selfish. I’m just sayin!

OK I’ll stop there. I will counter all four of those things with the fact that I have amazing friends and co-workers who “get it” and who are supportive and funny and help me feel like this too, shall pass. MAJOR thanks to my dear friends who suggested this book, I am hoping on it.

Anyway.

How about some music? I caught this, titled Gypsy Fade, by Galactic, while listening to Pandora this morning, and thought it was worth a share. Very funky/jazzy/almost reggaeish. Enjoy.

Fake NaBloPoMo Get Off Your Ass and Blog Day 9 Status:

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Day 8

So how lame was Day 7? LAME huh? OK here’s what happened.

I’m lying in bed after a long day trip to visit family, taking everyone out to eat, sit and watch some NBA, and then drive two hours to get home. The teens have homework and Monday to get ready for, and I have my own things to take care of, and when I am just about to nod off, my head pops up off the pillow and I realize…… I’d forgotten to post, and now my lame ass fake NaBloPoMo is going to fail on DAY SEVEN. Seven! I panicked, I admit it.

So I hopped on the phone and uploaded a picture of my dog. She is of course, a lovely pooch, and really quite the apple of my eye, so I guess in some way, I can claim worthwhile post- for me. Not really for you.

So yeah, sorry about that.

Today though is Day 8, and I have for you….musings on Gregory Maguire’s latest novel, Out of Oz. First let me say that Maguire is one of my favorite writers. He is lyrical, and witty and brilliant, and I love a writer who can make the non-sensical seem down right intelligent by virtue of the words that fall out of his brain and into his stories.

All that being said, this book- which is the latest in the Wicked series, has me saying WTF, like, a LOT. I remember plenty from the last three books, yet somehow I feel like I am in a whole different world in this book and it’s quite disconcerting. Maybe that was the point, given the subject matter. Anyway, I’m near halfway through…I’ll keep you posted.

I’m also reading (guilty pleasure) book 12 in the Janet Evanovich Plum series. These reads are easy and funny in a literal LOL way, and require little to no brain power. which, sometimes, totally fits the bill. A very dear friend sent them to me, practically the whole series, and I have decided that my favorite way to read a series is to have all of them at my disposal, so I can binge read to my hearts content.

Yes, I am a nerd, now that you mention it. 🙂 What do YOU read? Any recommendations?

P.S. Crap. Part of posting is actually hitting the PUBLISH button. So this was technically written on the 8th day but posted on the 9th day. Ya’ll better still give me credit, ’cause I’m callin it good. 😉

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Whoopsie!

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day 7

look! My dog!

Status: totally almost forgot to post!

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Day 6 Good!

via Pinterest

1. Today was remarkable harmonious for me and mine. Limited snark and sass, who knew!

2. Weekends are glorious. I love you, Saturday.

3. Grace Potter (of Grace Potter and The Nocturnals), is, I am convinced, Janis Joplin reincarnated. Incredible voice.

 

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Lovely!

 

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Day 5

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Totally phoning in my post tonight because I had a crazy busy but fun day…and I really don’t want to skip a post in fake Nablopomo!

Highlights from today:

1- Laughing!
2- Watching my girls acting cute in front of boys.
3- Dinner with my family and laughing over ridiculous reality tv with my brother
4- Being excited about writing and projects and future plans.

Day 5 status : Super happy 🙂

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Day 4 Post

Seriously

1. I had a needle-like instrument stuck in each eye today, to test the thickness of my cornea for potential lasik surgery. Result: My corneas are skinny. It might be the only thing about me that is. Also, the notion of needle in eye? CREEPY.

2. My Teenager and I almost launched WW III in the car on the way home. Thankfully peace talks prevailed and negotiations proved successful. We shall live to see another day.

3. I have yet to best Shoot Bubble level 99. No one is surprised.

4. I almost never put much stock in astrology, but every now and then I come across Free Will Astrology, and it’s actually entertaining in a quasi-almost coincidental and witty/poetic kind of way. Mine for this week, read today at my local Starbucks…

“There are works which wait, and which one does not understand for a long time,” said Oscar Wilde. “The reason is that they bring answers to questions which have not yet been raised; for the question often arrives a terribly long time after the answer.” I predict that sometime soon, Leo, you will prove that wisdom true. You will finally learn the brilliant question whose crucial answer you got years ago. When it arrives, you will comprehend a mystery that has been churning in the semi-darkness all this time.

Mysterious, no? Intriguing, yes? Time will tell.

5. Speaking of the local Starbucks. I popped in to try a vanilla blonde roast, prior to my appointment for eye needling, and found myself surrounded by the sound of many foreign tongues. Moms with their kids in strollers, chatting away in what I could tell was Russian, and French. It was quite the continental experience for Small Town, NM, I must say.

6. Poem read to me by Little Teenager just mere seconds ago, who loves “the serene image in my mind, omg”. (!)

Silver

Slowly, silently, now the moon
Walks the night in her silver shoon;
This way, and that, she peers, and sees
Silver fruit upon silver trees;
One by one the casements catch
Her beams beneath the silvery thatch;
Couched in his kennel, like a log,
With paws of silver sleeps the dog;
From their shadowy cote the white breasts peep
Of doves in silver feathered sleep
A harvest mouse goes scampering by,
With silver claws, and silver eye;
And moveless fish in the water gleam,
By silver reeds in a silver stream.

Walter de la Mare

Question. What, pray tell, is a shoon? One wonders…..

That’s all I got. Good luck and good night!

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Is this thing on?

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